Strong Emotion

I can feel myself tense up
almost everyday in this week
and I go back to bed tiredly
feeling that all the energy has drained out of my body

Different emotions are playing in my mind
All with only similarity... intense

Grateful
for my result is really better than what I have expected
It is the kind of level that make me feel like it isn't real

Ecstatic
for I am one step nearer to my dream
onli one very small step.. Still a long way to go...

Ridiculous
the course that I apply for really wide range
from law till civil engineering
How could these two courses ever related

Choice
I wonder
Will I be able to continue what I have chosen
with that bit of passion, determination and boldness
that small bit which hold me till now
will that be enough?

Scared
even thinking about this word
"Interview"
makes my head hurt!

Unsure
there are distances that
I dunno if I will reach
just by stepping out the first step
I miss u... really miss u...
and I dunwan to lost all those precious moment...
Dunwan to just to be able to find it in my memory